Dread

There's this gripping sinking feeling in my core that just wont go away.

Not after the recent news. I must say it was inevitable, but really seeing it go down  makes me sick to my stomach. Not to mention sick at heart. Proves to show you some things are meant to be unsolved and that good things must come to an end.

But they've been such an important part of my life as of late. its disturbing to see things unfold this way. My source of comfort and joy has suddenly turned to some torturing reality in which i can't turn myself away from. They say sticks and stones can break my bones but words will never hurt me. But i know that words can break a person, slowly chipping away at you.

I had thought that loyalty and love would conquer over everything, even time, as naive as that may seem. But people are cruel and there is no clear line between the right and the wrong, which leaves you feeling utterly helpless to help anything.

I feel relieved but sorry and the same time.Such contradictory feelings must not be good for a person. Hm.. but i'm being too melancholic. This is still just the tip of the iceberg. Maybe something unbelievable will happen. So i can have that hope in them again.