Gelap

Hari nie hari blackout sedunia.

First kat kolej..
pagi2 tengah semangat nak menota kan diri with full cup of nestum in tow.. ttb komputer shut down.. so as i was thinking ' jahanam lah kmputer aku klu slalu camnie' i grabbed the broom stick and headed out to the power source box thingy.. ( as u can see i'm a real expert in these things -_-v) But the lever was pushed up to on. A bit perplexed a hiked up to the second floor. Smue senyap. Sah2 satu blok dah black out. Usually it was just my wing. I'm always unlucky like that. ^_^v But apparently everyone was unlucky 2day.. heheh

Then i made up my mind to go to the faculty. Maybe download some info on the lab discussion i was supposed to send.. yesterday.. ehehe ^_^v my bad.. Then in the middle of my shower the lights turned on. But of course.. my wing was still left in the dark. There i was again with my broomstick poking at the stupid lever. And finally there was light ^_^. Tp memandangkan dah wangi pun, trus pakai bj nak g fak.

Sampai2 je kat fak.. gelap gelita. Satu fak mcm dalam emergency shutdown with those annoying beeping sounds coming from the backup generators and those creepy dim lights in the hallways. Just my luck i tell ya.. the WHOLE faculty. So there i was, with a couple other pissed off people sitting in an unconditioned computer lab hopefully staring at blank screens. As if the mind could do some electrical miracle and boost the machines back on. It took about 20 minutes. give or take another 15 minutes before the internet was back on line.

Unfortunately my newly found good mood turned completely sour when i read the inbox to my facebook. I will not divulge the full contents but the key words were, 'kawin' 'fitnah' ' datang rumah tahun depan'. Immediate members of my family will know exactly what i mean.

Lets go over the facts.

I do not liked to be forced. I do not like other's opinions forced on me ESPECIALLY. I am clear on the concepts of 'kahwin' and when i am or am not ready for such commitments. (just turned 21 for gods sake -_-v) Usually this little situation would not have gotten my blood to boil so out of control. But the fact is, i thought i had addressed it not once but SEVERAL times before.

All i ask is this.

When you ask people to understand your feelings, take a second and think about theirs. When you're adamant about what you want, realize that it might not be what other people want. And when you ask questions, listen carefully to the answer, instead of only listening to the parts that you would like to hear. Sometimes, the answer is staring you right in the face.

Hurm..

This is probably what i look like every time i step into a class at 8. -_-v Its seriously embarrassing having telltale signs of deprived sleep plastered on your face for the whole world to see. Damn my schedule this semester, all my classes are in the morning T-T

I've just successfully finished the career program i was handling with afiq last sunday. To my surprise it actually went pretty well ^_^ Given that most of the committee were hand picked neways. It had BETTER gone well. But seriously the perks of working with people you know really relieves a lot of stress. Which i'm very prone to these days. That night we had a belated birthday party for hana and me. All was well before they poured curry and aca and soda on the both of us. Which was expected. Like bapak said.. once a year ^_^ Getting old has its setbacks.. Nyuhuhuhu

Less than two weeks left before finals. Thank god i already secured my industrial training. KHH Double lion (Arrrrrrrrr ^_^) But even then, i have this unsettling feeling at the pit of my stomach. I just hope things go smoothly for the next six months. It would be total hell if i'm stuck doing the same lab work day after day. Brain dead i tell ya.

Neways.. need to start diggin into them notes.. God knows how many hours to revise 7 subjects. Not counting writing them out. Dooms day on the 29th

Pray for me >_<

Why the title?

I've actually just finished my interaction skills class. One that i am starting to dread even less now. I guess some teachers understand that not all classes have the obligation to put a burden on their students already sagging shoulders thank god..

But i was slightly irked today.

We were supposed to be doing a practice run for our public speaking test next week. I mean it is an interactive skills class people, anybody who didn't see it coming must have been blind. But anyway we were put in groups of four with one speaker and another 4 interactors. Personally I didn't think it would have been so bad. Though public speaking may not really be my forte, its just talking. Way better than sitting listening to a 2 hour lecture anyday.

So the conversation began. And that was the moment i started feeling a bit stressed out.

Ever disliked somebody for the way they talked? Nevermind the subject. Just... the way they talked. Intonation, body language, the works. Maybe some would say i'm a bit too judgemental. But i think even when talking about something offensive, you can still put it in a way that helps buffer whatever statement you want to give.

The topic was FAR from offensive and yet there i was feeling increasingly annoyed at this one particular speaker. First off, no effort whatsoever. I understand he may have had to take the class just to fulfill UPM requirements and he's not really there out of his own will. But look around and he'll see another 29 students going through the exact same predicament. He didn't even try to elaborate. Just kept giggling and saying that he did not understand the topic which CLEARLY was not asking him to explain the laws of physics -_-v I mean come on people... we're 20-21 years old. Grow up. Doing things half assed isn't going to get you anywhere.

Secondly were the comments. I mean i know you are entitled to your opinions. But sometimes opinions should really have substance before you plan on giving them. Answers like "i don't think it's fair cuz i don't think it's unfair" just really makes you look dumb. Honestly... >_<>

Finally was the fact that he wanted to impose his way of thinking on the whole group. It's a discussion. You suggest. Not blatantly state what you think is right and what everyone else thinks is just trash. I mean, you don't even need to go to class to learn that -_-v apparently it came to my attention that the class was actually meant for people like him.

Fuh.. ok done venting.

But in addition to my already sour mood at the level of maturity in university students i found out, that i had failed one of my tests. Failed.

So that brings down my mood meter down significantly. Especially when i can't seem to come to terms with the questions on that test. Serious retaliation on my part >_<

Mengarut..

x tau ape nak tulis..

tp memandangkan ade 2 jam free duk kat kom lab ni x buat ape..
baik tulis sumthing jgk..

Saat2 ni lah kemalasan melanda. Skarang dah tidur awal.. Balik terawih semangat nak blaja nih.. ttb kecundang jgk atas katil. nota tak bace... assignment pun last minit baru nak cari bahan. Kadang masuk kelas pun macam blur semacam.

Asal ek? >_<

nak kate asyik pk nak raye x jugak.. walaupun bj raye dah setel smue. Ke mungkin rase tersangat relaks sebab banyak spend time kat rumah 2 minggu nie.. maklum lah weekend3 hari 2 minggu straight. Kompem2 lah nak balik kan.. Lagi pun terawih kat rumah feel die jauh lg tenang dr kat kolej. Lagi2 buka kat rumah kan.. memang best ^_^

Cakap pasal buka, aritu buat buka beramai2 dgn kos mate. Makan bubur ayam mc-nisya..heheh. Kami ditugaskan buat air.. ulang alik lah g masak nak fill tong tu untuk 20+ orang.. nasib baik blackcurrent to sedap. ^_~ Makan atas lantai alas surat khabar je. Tp best je makan ramai2. And kitorang pun memmang kaki kamera so lepas makan mula lah posing x sihat masing2 dengan cover perut yang x brape nak kempis tu kan.. muwhahahha ^_^


Minggu ni dengar citer nak buat lagi.. BBQ style pulak.. yang penting bdk lelaki nak setelkan ayam. So relaks je lah.. hehehe

Muke2 kenyang

bersedian sebelum buka..

Aigo..chincha..

I'm seriously awaiting a much needed H1n1 break..

though the probability seems slim now. 10 hours counting till FST4822 test. If no announcement for closing of upm is done by then... then, i guess i wont put my hopes up to high T-T

But seriously.. my brain is cramped with oils, cereals, meats, legumes and all its brethrens. I don't think i'll be a able to cram anything else in for the next 2 tests lining up. And the the journal presentation on friday..

is just my cherry on top.

I'm also having a problem waking up in the middle of the night. Sometimes at 2 3 in the morning. If i'm lucky it just takes 10 minutes to go back to sleep. When i'm not...I'm up till subuh..

"My dark circles are seriously spreading"

>_<

gue benar2 capek..

Xtau lah klu disebabkan paperwork yang x nampak kehabisannyer,..

atau lab yang terlampau tepu dengan manusia..

atau AGM biruni yg masih belum selesai..

atau disebabkan blood pressure ku yang agak rendah

sehingga menyebabkan diriku x dapat nak menanggung kepenatan. >_<

Ingat bile dah balik rumah smue akan kembali normal. Tapi sampai2 je bermulah symptom2 mual & sakit kepale. Tambah2 lagi kakak ku sorang tu bersin kiri kanan.

maka terdapatlah virus2 nya berterbangan. Harap2 tak higgap.

At least kat rumah nie laju sikit internetnye. Berbanding siput sedut kat kolej tu. Kadang pikir baik x payah. Celcom broadband pulak terpakse di put on hold memandang krisis kewangan yang melanda.

Cepatlah akhir July.. penuh sket bank akaun..

Isnin depan meeting BBQ night. Ntah ape yang patut diceritakan. Pagi tu lepas ke FBMK (jauh nyer.... >_<) mungkin boleh singgah g unit kaunseling cek klu cik akmillah sudah pulang dari holiday.. Klu sempat blh trus wat pertukaran tarikh, bak kate bapak.. Dengan gambar2 MIHAS yang belum print lagi.. seronok betul hidup ku ^_^

Sekarang ni tengah dengar lagu 'aku bukan pilihan hatimu' dah kali kelapan ulang.. Suare pasha sedap sgt kut.. mmg sedap pun..

Tujuan.. objektif.. pengenalan..

Argh..

i hate paperwork with a passion. Seeing the same heading over and over again really puts me in a miserable mood. -_-v

Yesterday i just taped up this sem's calendar on my wall. And suddenly realized aside from the fact that i had vowed to stay out of anything this sem.. things seem to keep landing themselves on the small rectangular dates of my calendar. Nandatte...? Its like 2nd year all over again except this time not focused towards k6.

First program will be Biruni's KPO at Dusun Eco resort. But i'm a bit worried about that since it slightly overlaps with my faculty program on the 26th. Hopefully my vice has it all covered. IF the paperwork passes. >_<

Argh have class..
must go..